8:05 p.m. - 20.10.04
\"you'd make an excellent cog!\"
My thoughts are too unsequential now to conform to the diaryland format again, but I figured I would write something since there seems to be such a call to get everyone back here. At least for a little :)

My life now comes in bite-sized chunks of happiness intermixed with stress. It is perfect for livejournal, with its constant flow of too much information at once. Is this what a life is like for everyone? It's too loud and too busy to be real.

I used to feel I had talent. Well. That is a lie. But I still do have offcenter dreams and am working to fulfill them. But it has made me feel very detached from my center, and generally now I feel like I'm not doing anything to reach higher. There is a constant pressure in my head to keep from being a "failure," but I'm still not sure when I will know I am a success.

I haven't changed, in other words.

"you'd make an excellent cog!"

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